I hate cancer!

I hate cancer!  And I hate chemo!  It turns my beautiful baby girl into the biggest brat!  She has been so funny, nice, sweet, and loving since we were done with radiation, chemo, and steroids.  Now, starting chemo again this morning, she was a beast all day!  She was sick and didn't want to eat anything.  She screamed and hit Byrklee.  She wouldn't share her popcorn with Bryker.  And cried the entire time that Grandpa Potato and Grandma Wendy were here.  She was a beast!  Why does cancer have to ruin everything?  Why does this sweet, beautiful little girl have to go thru this horrible nightmare?  Why can't it be me?  She's precious and innocent.  She is so young and has so much potential!  I've lived my life and have had my fair share of trials and joys.  Why doesn't she get to have hers?  Why won't she be able to learn what life has to offer?  She feels so yucky but doesn't understand why.  She has no idea how many people love her and want her to stay here.  I just want to go back to February and stay there forever!