Bitter Sweet

So I was getting ready to hop in bed when I remembered I hadn't written anything yet for today.  And I was about ready to say forget it when I realized that if it were a bad day I would have already written something on here.  But since today was a good day I was so willing to brush it off.  That made me get out of bed and sign on to write today!  This is a time when it is so easy to focus on the sad moments and depressing feelings that we need to celebrate when there is a good day, a laugh, a smile, and good news!

Brylee took her last dose of chemo today and Tuesday is her last radiation therapy!  Then we play the wait game until her next MRI in...June I think?  I thought we had radiation until the 19th but her radiation doctor told me today that my schedule is wrong and she graduates on Tuesday!  It's bitter sweet for me.  I'm so ready to be done and go back home and try to be normal again for as long as we can be.  But it also makes me kinda nervous to not have a doctor look at her everyday!  But I'm ready to sleep in my own bed and give my kitty a hug!

Over all it was a really good day today.  Brylee talked more than I've heard her talk in over a month!  Instead of just crying until I guessed what she needed she would actually say "Mama I need blah."  So happy!!!!  I don't have to play the guessing game anymore!  She has smiled so much today and laughed over everything!  I feel like she's coming back a little bit at a time.

Cory gave me the best birthday present today (although my birthday is technically tomorrow).  He made me a DVD slide show of every picture of Brylee that we have!  I cried for the entire 22 minutes of slides.  I was the best and most horrible present ever!  Kinda like in Madagascar 3 when Alex the lion says "You both made and ruined my day!"  It was so sweet and it will totally be my best, most cherished present I'll ever get.  Love you Bree!