Never

I went to go see my other kids for an hour today.  On the way back to the hospital all I did was cry.  It's so painful to think about my precious little angel and the misery she is in right now.  She can't chew or swallow, she is having issues breathing, she hasn't been able to smile in a year, and she hasn't walked since Wednesday.  It pains me to know that this little girl will never ride a bike or go sledding.  She'll never meet Cinderella or go to the beach.  She'll never play soccer or have a dance recital.  She'll never go to prom or get married.  I hurt so much for my baby.  I'm going to miss her climbing in my lap and her telling me not to leave her.  I'll miss the quiet way she whispers "I love you" in my ear every day.  Or the moments when she says Mama four times in a row and when I finally say what she goes ummmm I love you!  She's so sweet and innocent.  Why does she have to go through this horrible trial?