I can't do this anymore! Every day is torture when I have to wake up and see my beautiful little girl and know that her time is going to get cut short. I wish he would just take her and get it over with so I could have closure and move on! I feel like I'm constantly walking on egg shells, never knowing when it'll be over. I try to handle it and be strong but I'm failing miserably! I screamed at the top of my lungs on the way home from school today and started punching my steering wheel. I can't do this. I'm weak and numb. I hate those moments of solitude while I'm driving to and from school because that's when it becomes real again. I scream at god and the world, I tell him to take her away and stop putting me through hell. But then when I get home and see my baby I realize I'm not ready for her to go. I just want the pain to leave. Brylee don't leave me.
Brylee Olson was diagnosed with a DIPG, an inoperable brain tumor (infiltrating brain stem glioma) on Wednesday, March 6, 2013. This is a blog for her and her fight to be in the 5% who survive 3-4 years. Or the rare chance of complete survival.