Today has been a really hard day for me and because of that it has been a really hard day for Brylee. I've been really upset and stressed out. Bree can pick that up and she's been really testy today. Any little thing has set her off and she has done nothing but yell and hit. This is completely my fault because my thoughts are else where. So I've come to the conclusion that my thoughts will no longer be else where. I don't care what is going on in the world right now. I am going to put all my focus on my little Brylee because she is the only one that matters right now. It is selfish of me to take myself away from her if only for a few seconds. It saddens me that there are people out there that are so caught up on themselves that they can't spend time with sweet Brylee. I've been thinking all day about how I hurt for those that are going to miss out on Brylee and have so much regret in the years to come because they aren't willing to make those memories with her. But after Brylee's hard day today because I was distracted I've decided that's not my place to worry about that right now. So I'm not going to worry about it. My time is Brylee's time and it will always be about Brylee. She is the one and only in my life right now.
I'm really excited for tomorrow! It's Easter and I'm hoping we'll see another Brylee smile. She is completely obsessed with chocolate and even though the doctor said technically she can't have it because it's a solid food I'm totally planning on breaking the rules and giving her some! I can't wait to see the twinkle in her eyes and that huge grin on her face that I haven't seen in a year.
For those that don't know the week before her MRI we took her to the eye doctor because her eyes were crossing, which was due to the tumor but we had no knowledge of the tumor. The eye doctor told us that she had really horrible eye sight on top of the crossing. He even said that the sight has dropped out of her left eye. He said that she needed glasses. The day before her MRI we finally found an optical place that carried glasses small enough for her tiny little figure and ordered her a cute pair. We finally got them in the mail this week. Today was day number 2 of her wearing them. She keeps crying and saying she is scared when she is wearing them. Can you imagine what it would be like? Having your entire world so blurry and out of focus and thinking that is normal and then putting on these things that make the world completely in focus and everything is so clear and right in your face. I'd be scared too! Although I think she's starting to enjoy it because she didn't fight them today and didn't try to take them off. Progress!